Lil Xan Gets Vulnerable About Addiction And His Music's Real Message

Lil Xan is a complex artist. On the hook to his hit song, "Betrayed" the California artist raps, " Xans don't make you / Xans gon' take you / Xans gon' fake you / And Xans gon' betray you," nevertheless has also admitted to being on the drug whenever creating the song. In an interview with MTV News correspondent Gaby Wilson, MTV’s Push: Artist to Watch for the month of May opened up about his battle with addiction.


"If you were following me since the starting you visualize my journey," Xan mentioned. "From If I was struggling with addiction to "Hit My Line" all of the way through "Betrayed," you followed me on the journey to that better place."


Xan goes on to detail the story of how he became addicted to the medication.


"I got anxiety in April of 2014," the Total Xanarchy artist continued. "I was hospitalized for two weeks and so they didn't know what was wrong with me and at the end they gave me a low dosage of Xanax. Before the entire anti-Xanax message in what I do, I was actually pro-Xanax culture."


Thankfully, Xan ends his interview on a positive note as he discusses the underlying message of his music.


"Performing is the one time I don't have anxiety, surprisingly right," Xan concludes. "People are like, 'How do you perform in front of thousands of people.' I don't know if it's the adrenaline that kicks in or something, although its really the only time I'm at peace...I want everybody to know they're not alone. That's why I do this."


Watch Lil Xan perform his Diplo group effort "Color Blind" below and break down why it is one of his preference songs.