Justin Bieber Shares How 'Access To Whatever I Wanted' Shaped His Struggles With Mental Health

Justin Bieber is sharing intimate specifics about the early days of his rise to stardom and why it affected his life.


In a heartfelt Instagram post on Monday, September 2, the singer talked how jetting to superstardom at age 13 and the issues that came as well as fame shaped some of his struggles with mental health and substance use whenever he reached adulthood.


"It's hard to get out of bed in the morning with the correct attitude any time as soon as you are overwhelmed with your life, your past, job, responsibilities, emotions, your family members, finances, your relationships," Bieber wrote. "You begin foreseeing the day through lenses of 'dread' and anticipate another bad day."


In the lengthy and candid post, Bieber revealed that a unstable residence life, having access to whichever he wanted," and having his whole world "flipped on its head" ended up contributing to some of the problems he has expressed dealing with as an adult. He expressed that the "ups and downs" of being an entertainer lead to his usage of "heavy illegal substances by the age of 19 and also pushed him to abuse "all of his relationships" as well, as he noted specifically he had been "disrespectful to women."


“I became resentful… and angry,” he wrote. “I became distant to each person who loved me, and I was hiding in back of, a shell of a person that I had become. I felt like I may never turn it around.”


Bieber talked how he went from his life as a 13-year-old from a tiny town to being praised and adored by millions of fans, which eventually lead to him believing how fantastic he was, which he believes was not only harmful to his personalized growth, however ended up keeping him from learning the "fundamentals of responsibility." He also lamented being 18 years old with the world as his oyster and millions of dollars to do as he pleased with.


“By 20, I made every bad decision you can have thought of and went from one of the most loved and adored people in the world to the most ridiculed, judged, and hated person in the world," he wrote.


Before wrapping up his lament on his past issues, Bieber talked on marriage, which is the ideal season" of his life.


“You learn patience, trust, commitment, kindness, humility, and all the things it looks like to be a good man," he wrote of his relationship with his wife, Hailey Bieber. He wrapped things up with a phone call to readers to "keep fighting," and urged fans to be kind and bold, and to love people.


This isn't the opening time the singer has been open about his mental health and the measures he's taken to confront and deal with it over the years.


In February, Bieber was reportedly seeking treatment for depression, and has publicly commented on his "struggles with finding peace," often thanking Hailey for helping him via rough patches while in the course of their relationship.


In March, Bieber told fans he had "been struggling a lot" with feeling "super disconnected and weird" any time while he shared a snap of himself praying alongside Kanye West and manager Scooter Braun. He assured fans he would bounce back as he routinely does," requesting that fans pray for him and crediting his faith for getting him through several of his rougher patches.