'I Thought I Was Going To Hell': Leah Describes The 'Guilt' Surrounding Her Teen Mom 2 Abortion

Eight years prior, Leah shared on Teen Mom 2 that she had suffered a miscarriage with her then-boyfriend Jeremy. Yet while in tonight's episode, she opted to "reveal the truth" about what happened in 2012 after the release of her brand-new memoir Hope, Grace, & Faith, in which she chronicles what actually unfolded.


"The miscarriage that played out on TV was an abortion," Leah instructed her producer Brendan, just before footage rolled from Season 4. "I was not wedded to Jeremy; we were dating. Although yet still, Corey was sort of really, really in my head around that time. I felt like I had f*cked up by getting pregnant."


Leah then revealed this was before she was eight weeks along -- and she made up the miscarriage because she felt "ashamed."


"In West Virginia, abortion is a very controversial topic," she continued about her house state. "So to me, it looked like, 'I don't want anyone to know I did this.'" Including Jeremy, who at the time was told by Leah it was a miscarriage.


"I don't think anyone is aware the guilt. Like, I thought I was going to hell," Leah added, wiping away tears. "I was also afraid he was going to be like, 'You're a murderer.'"


Still, Leah managed to find light at the end of the tunnel.


"What I've learned is that I get to love myself no matter what, even behind the mistakes that I've made in my life," she stated. "And I get to forgive myself because we're all correctly imperfect."


She then attempted to discuss this topic with Jeremy, however he "didn't wish to talk about it." His take: Leah could have left out this piece of her past. Her immediate response: "That's not owning my sh*t."


Jeremy then reflected on their history -- and why she instructed him right in front of his parents' house.


"I remember a lot of the time in my life, and I just never brought it back up to you," he explained. "I never spoken about it. We got back with each other and I just sort of left it alone."


However right now, they aren't leaving it alone: The two addressed this complicated chapter in their relationship on camera and opted to move forward, all while remembering a unforgettable on-screen moment.


"You mentioned, 'Leah, in the event you can't love yourself, you can't love anyone else,'" Leah mentioned, because the scene replayed. "I was like, 'Damn.'"


Then they swapped "I love yous" -- along with a high-five. Be sure to keep watching Leah and her loved ones every Tuesday on Teen Mom 2 at 8/7c.


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