Halsey Opens Up About Seeking Help For Her Mental Health: 'I've Been Committed Twice ... I'm Not Ashamed'

Over the course of Halsey's career, she hasn't been shy about sharing some of the most personalized and intimate specifics of her life. From the miscarriage she suffered before an efficiency in 2015 to her ongoing struggle with mental health, she keeps it up and continues to prove that she's an open book. Yet just as soon as we thought she laid it all out there, the singer revealed to Rolling Stone even more specifics about her experience with bipolar disorder — which she was diagnosed with at 17 years old soon after a suicide attempt — and why she tries to get ahead of it before it begins to feel also complicated to manage.


"I've been committed twice since [I became] Halsey, and no one's known about it. Yet I'm not ashamed of talking about it right now she instructed them magazine. "It's been my choice. ... I've mentioned to [my manager], 'Hey, I'm not going to do anything bad now, nevertheless I'm getting to the point where I'm scared that I may, so I need to go figure this out.' It's still happening in my body. I just know any time to get in front of it."


But just because she's aware of her illness and takes the required steps to manage it doesn't mean she doesn't struggle with the reality that, one day, her manic period will come to an end. Halsey understands exactly how her bipolar cycles work, and immediately after experiencing an extended period of mania, she is aware it's only a matter of time up until she wakes up feeling the full opposite. "I know I'm just going to get fucking depressed and be boring again soon," she told Rolling Stone. "And I hate that that's a way of thinking. Every time I wake up and realize I'm back in a depressive episode, I'm bummed. I'm like, 'Fuck. Fuck! This is where we're going now?”


Interestingly enough, Halsey's upcoming album will be the initial one she's ever written in a manic state, and according to her, it shows. On it, there will be "hip-hop, rock, nation, fucking everything — because it's so manic. It's soooooo manic. It's literally just, like, whichever the fuck I felt like making; there was no reason I couldn't make it." This will be the opening LP she releases that will not be classified as a concept album.


Despite being inherently different from her previous releases, producer Benny Blanco says her writing fashion hasn't changed much from album to album. "She'll be like, 'OK, I'm gonna go smoke a cigarette,' and literally whenever she comes back the song is done." Yet her manic state has, at the very least, had some categorize kind of impact on the full process. According to Blanco, Halsey's had to try out a different approach with this album by revisiting songs she's written a number of weeks ago because she "can't sit still long enough to be efficient — a product of her manic state.


Overall, some may look at Halsey and all of her success and assume it should make her lows even lower and her highs even higher, nevertheless that's actually not the case at all. "It makes me accountable," she mentioned, insisting that, if anything, working at her craft has given her the stability she needed.