Teen Mom OG First: Why Amber Decided To Film A Deeply Personal Part Of Her Life

Amber has been candid about her bipolar and borderline personality disorders "to inspire and educate" others. And while in tonight's brand-new Teen Mom OG episode, the mother of two took this objective one step further and filmed a portion of her recovery she had refrained from sharing on camera up until now: a therapy session. So why the shift in exposing this deeply personalized and painful segment of her life?


"It's hard -- I think there's just such a big stigma against people like me [with bipolar and borderline]," she told Andrew before the appointment.


"I think a lot of people attempt to hide their condition and not really be open about it," Andrew responded, while Amber admitted that was how she proceeded as well.


As soon as it came time for the to-be-televised sit-down -- Andrew wanted to join Amber -- she openly expressed that her mood swings have been exceptionally complicated, and "tiny things" enrage her. Any time her psychiatrist pressed if she felt attacked, Amber tearfully confessed she did -- and some days by James' father.


"Sometimes I feel attacked once Andrew doesn't understand things," she revealed. "There's things that he doesn't understand bipolar and around what I have, and yes it hurts my feelings because I want the number-one person to know everything about me."


Her therapist then suggested Amber and Andrew some key perspective on how to better cope while in tough incidents.


"People who are in relationships with people who have borderline personality disorder, it's accommodating that they have a understanding of it as well. Because often, they don't understand [and ask], 'What did I just mention? What did I just do that made her so angry?'"


additionally, validating feelings is vital -- and this specific dialogue struck a chord with Amber.


"Every year, we've tried with medication -- lowering them, taking away some," she sobbed. "I'll do anything to be usual. I love this man more than anything, and he treats me really well. And I feel like I'm a bad person sometimes."


Andrew and the therapist assured her that her sad sentiment about herself was not the truth, yet she insisted it's a "war with your f*cking brain."


"I think it just bothers me because I want to hear someone tell me there's a cure, so I can walk outdoors and feel happy," she painfully said.


Voice your support for Amber in the comments, and be sure to keep watching her journey on Teen Mom OG at 9/8c on Mondays.