Double Agent Deactivated: Natalie Addresses Her Unexpected Challenge Exit

Natalie appeared on Survivor twice (winning San Juan del Sur and finishing second on Winners at War) and got off to a strong begin on The Challenge: Double Agents with the first Gold Skull. However throughout this week's episode, the stellar rookie was deactivated from the competition and "no longer cleared" to be in the game.


"It sucks that I have to step out because all I'd like to do is compete," Natalie stated shortly right after TJ delivered the news to each person before the mission "Agents Down." "It's breaking my heart to leave. I just hope that I can come back and prove that I was built for this game and hopefully next time finish the job I started."


Right now, Natalie -- who was paired up with Cory at the time -- is starting up about the personalized matter" that required her to abruptly exit.


"I noticed out I was pregnant Whenever I was out there," she revealed to Entertainment Weekly. "Even though I had to leave the show, this was a new journey for me with my boyfriend, Devin [Perez], and I was 100 percent comfortable moving forward with him in this decision. Yet in the end it wasn't my decision. I ended up having a miscarriage."


She explained MTV and Challenge producers respected her choice to keep everything private on the show.


"I think it's good closure and also a good way for me to put this whole thing beyond me," she stated. "It's very therapeutic. Since I've gone through this, I've discussed to several companions and it's more usual than it isn't, and people just don't hope to talk about it because there really is like a bad stigma around it. And for me, I never felt that. I never felt ashamed and I never apologized for what happened, and I just looked to Devin for support and we got through it together."


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