there's a good chance good you've heard "All I Want For Christmas Is You" approximately 374,304 times by right now, ever since that last jack-o'-lantern was extinguished. Yet if you're in the mood for a really sad holiday season, might I propose "Miss You Most (At Christmas Time)," another original song on
Mariah Carey's album,
Merry Christmas?
Everything about the song — from the piano intro to the lyrics to the Mariah basically pleads by way of the melody — is heartbreaking. The message to a long-gone relationship holds nothing back; rather than moving on, she doesn't just dwell — she
grieves. "Miss You Most" has habitually been one of my main go to holiday songs because it doesn't make any pretenses about feeling. Rather than put on a happy face and attempt to be cheerful and joyous, here's Mariah belting her heart out with such force, it would take a stronger heart than mine to not be immediately despondent. Some days, you just need to feel how you feel. Some days, that feeling is heartbreak. And some days you feel it at Christmastime. Lean into it. Play this song as soon as you do. Cry your eyes out and know you're not alone. —
Ella Cerón