Billie Eilish Opens Up About Grappling With Fame: 'It Was Horrible For A Year'

Diehard Billie Eilish fans would probably agree that the singer's career skyrocketed right following the release of her debut album When We All Fall Asleep, Where Do We Go?, which came out this past March and made good on years of pre-album buzz. Yet like several celebrities, the sudden onslaught of fame was challenging for her to grapple with at first. And what started as a creative outlet speedily turned into worldwide adoration for a 17-year-old who's not afraid to experiment with her sound. Right now that she's settled into her fame a little, though, Eilish told Elle that she sort of likes it — despite not being able to go out in public.


"No, I can't go anywhere," she instructed them magazine of her lifestyle since becoming a celebrity. Fortunately, she doesn't really hope to especially if it demands taking care of errands. "That’s OK," she mentioned. "What am I gonna do? Go and get some soap? At some store? Ha-ha, I'm good." Apart from the fame and fortune, it appears she's just like most other teenagers in this way.


But just as the "Bad Guy" singer isn't spending her time picking up soap at a convenience store doesn't exactly mean she has any free time. Case in point, doing nothing only makes her feel lazy, and the mere thought of having unoccupied time in her schedule is, well, "gross." "Yuck!" She mentioned. "Days off are gross! What the fuck do I do right now? I don't like being bored. I don't like being lazy. Even as soon as I've got a fucking sprained ankle and I'm sick."


Still, there really are times Eilish wishes she could not be prominent. And once she doesn't miss taking care of errands or having free time, she finds a persons vision particularly bothersome any time she's at the airport. "I wish I might turn it off then," she mentioned. Any time I'm in the plane and two women come and tap me on the fucking face and take a picture of me while I'm attempting to sleep. Never get me wrong — I love every person that gives any fucks about me. However there really are lines. People forget what respect is."


Despite incidents like the one she described on the plane, Eilish has come to really love her fans and all of the passion they've shown her. And considering where she was just a number of years prior, it's astonishing to be able to see her completely embracing life at 17 — an age she was unsure lose ever live to be able to see. "Two years back, I felt like nothing mattered; almost every thing was pointless," she instructed them mag. "... I was completely clinically depressed. It's insane to look back and not be anymore. ... I was a 16-year-old girl who was really unstable. I'm in the happiest place of my life, and I didn't think that I would even make it to this age."


For fans of Eilish who are clinically depressed themselves, she wants you to know that finding happiness again had nothing to do with becoming prominent. And if you're feeling stuck, let her be a reminder that dark times don't last. "I've gotten to a point where I'm finally OK," she mentioned. "It's not because I'm prominent. It's not because I have a little bit more cash. ... For anybody who isn't doing well, it will get better. Have hope. I did this shit with fame riding on my shoulders. And I love fame! Being well known is wonderful, nevertheless it was horrible for each year. Right now I love what I do, and I'm me again. The good me. And I love the eyes on me."